Huh?

I was supposed to write something so as to cover up my past posts. I found them lacking in coherence and substance. However, my thoughts and emotions seem to just come and go. Haaay.

I am not able to express myself properly, especially when I talk about my emotions because my mood is easily changed. I have so many thoughts, but I am not able to write them down because the moment I open my diary or my blog, my inspiration has already "left me".

How come I am not able to savor every emotion that I feel? How come I am not able to pause and absorb what I am going through before I go on exploring and feeling other things? I don't know. Maybe it's my mind's fault. Or maybe it's my fault because I do not choose to dwell on things.

These days, I do not actually write whenever I have THE inspiration. It's more of writing because I have the urge to do so. I have the urge to let my feelings out. I have a NEED to release an emotion.

I noticed then that I would often write when I feel bad about certain things... Whenever I'd feel angry and frustrated. I find the need to write down my feelings usually when I am disappointed. Not happy. Not jolly.

Maybe there is no really NEED to write something when you feel happy about it. Maybe because when you are happy, you feel inspired. You write your thoughts LEISURELY and not "NECESSARILY". You write because you WANT to, not because you feel that you NEED to.

So... What's my point? I don't know. My ideas just left me.